“Entitled”

ESD May 2nd, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   You ever feel like you have no right to feel the feelings that you do? Is that even a good way to put that? Probably not. Like you’re mad at something or someone for such a wide variety of reasons that…

“Not to Sound Bitter”

ESD May 14th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   It has been 29 days since my arrival on Ryosh c. Not to sound bitter about it, but I’m getting a little worn out. Okay, more than a little worn out. Okay, I’m bitter, dammit. This is precisely the kind of…

“Addendum”

ESD April 15th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   An addendum to the last: I haven’t stopped screaming since landing, at least in my head, and I may just keep it up until we leave. Please send throat lozenges. That is all.

“Tantalus’ Figs”

ESD May 20th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   So Ores [11]  took off his helmet this afternoon. Errin said he just walked straight out of lunch, went down the road to the beach and popped it off. It’s a good thing somebody down there was watching out for this…

“A Night on the Town”

ESD April 18th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   I’ve never particularly thought of myself as a big deal. I did alright in school, managed to score a pretty solid gig in academia, got some papers published, and so on and so forth. Nothing that isn’t expected of every grad…

“Like A Christmas Tree”

ESD June 9th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   I haven’t slept more than about five hours since my last entry. This was not entirely on purpose but I’m not fighting it either. Once I get started on something, it’s hard to convince my brain that it has to take…

“Back to Work”

ESD June 7th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   Gorrin was right. It took a little more than just sitting on the beach to fix me up, but I still call it a success based on the fact that we just made the biggest breakthrough of the entire study as…

“In Other News”

ESD June 5th, 2629 Jocano Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   In other news, I totally forgot to mention this yesterday, which says something about how excited I was about the other thing. So one of my collaborators informed me the day before that he’d done some calculations on a whim (of…

“Putting the Team Together”

ESD October 7th, 2628 Destiny Colony, Jupiter Sol System   After two weeks of looking over CVs and writing samples from just about everywhere in human space, I finally sent out the biggest news since I got my own letter. Lots of promising candidates—not all of whom were informed by their respective faculty advisers and…

“Irrational”

ESD June 2nd, 2629 Jocano Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   Today I realized that simply knowing a behavior is irrational doesn’t make it stop. If anything, it makes you try even harder to rationalize it. This constantly beating myself up over perceived inadequacies has to stop. I’m a big girl with…

“A Much-Needed Break”

ESD May 31st, 2629 Jocano Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   I was told today to take what Gorrin called “a much-needed break”. Apparently, he thinks I’m working too hard and as much as I wanted to tell him that he 1.) didn’t know me and 2.) could stick it, I agreed….

“Eureka”

ESD June 4th, 2629 Malinowski Research Station, Trobriand Sector, Ryosh c Ryosh System   Have you ever racked your brain for months and months looking for the answer to some question that’s way too big for you, only to realize much later that you’re actually an idiot? Because let me tell you… I should say…